A.M.

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My back hurts. 
What time is it?
I need coffee. 
I need to pee. 
I shouldn’t have drank so much water. 
I shouldn’t have stayed up so late.
My eyes hurt. 
I need an allergy pill. 
No, an Advil cold and sinus. 
Shoot. We’re out. 
I need something. 
Yes, I’m in here. 
Yes, I’m getting up. 
Give me a minute, please. 
I’ll be right out. 
What have you been up to?
Did you eat?
Where’s your sister?
The dog needs to pee. 
The cat’s hungry. 
Did anyone feed these animals?
Because it’s one of your jobs. 
No, you can’t skip it. 
They need to eat. 
Please go get dressed. 
We have to leave soon. 
I need coffee. 
There’s applesauce on the floor. 
A lot of applesauce. 
You made an applesauce burrito?
No, I imagine that wouldn’t hold together. 
Who took a brick of cheese out of the fridge and left it on the counter? 
I should’ve emptied the dishwasher last night. 
No time to do it now. 
Ugh, the cat pooped on the rug again. 
I need to let the dog in. 
Then I’ll grab paper towels. 
That rug needs to go in the wash. 
Apple sauce. 
Cat poop. 
The litter box probably needs to be cleaned. 
Poor girl. 
I’m sorry. 
I miss your brother too. 
Yes, just grab a granola bar then. 
I don’t know where your water bottle is. 
Check the table in the hall. 
And go get dressed. 
We have to leave soon. 
I still need to let the dog in. 
I should clean that apple sauce up first. 
Did I make a coffee?
Come in. Who’s a good boy? 
Isn’t there something else I had to remember today?
An appointment somewhere? 
No, that’s tomorrow. 
The vet. 
The doctor later this week too. 
Nothing else on the calendar, but I remember something. 
Something. 
Two assignments due, but no, it’s something else. 
What is it?
I need to buy that birthday present. 
Dance is no longer cancelled on Saturday. 
Something else.
It’ll come to me. 
I can’t forget to sign you guys up for camp. 
Where are your pants? You need pants. 
Sure, wear that, but grab a sweater. 
It’s not that warm yet. 
Yes, you can bring a stuffed animal. 
No, a small one. 
Sure, you can too. 
Just pick one. 
I need to get dressed. 
Go get your pants. 
Get them now. 
Put them on. 
Did anybody feed you yet?
I’ll do it. 
Where’s my coffee?
I didn’t make it. 
The library books are due soon. 
Overdue?
Due. 
I’m not sure. 
I’ll grab them. 
The water in the well probably needs to be tested. 
Is everyone wearing pants?
Yes, I realize I’m not. 
I’m going to do that now. 
Brush your hair. 
Please. 
We should have left by now. 
No, that’s not a small stuffie. 
Smaller. 
I need to pack a bag. 
Extra hats and mitts. 
Extra socks. 
Extra pants just in case. 
I need something. 
Advil cold and sinus. 
Right, we’re out. 
I need to add that to the list. 
The birthday present.
A card too.
Do we have wrapping paper?
Dance is no longer cancelled on Saturday. 
Something else. 
I need to grab socks from the dryer. 
Pants. Put on pants. 
Do it now. 
Put the trains away. 
You can play with them later. 
You have to brush your entire head of hair, not just the front. 
Library books. 
Water bottles. 
I need to grab those bags of clothes for the donation bin. 
I need to empty the trunk first. 
I need to get dressed. 
Brush my teeth. 
I need coffee. 
You guys both need to pee before we go. 
Wash your hands. 
Do it now while I get dressed. 
We have to leave. 
Put your boots on. 
Put your boots on. 
Put your boots on. 
Yes, you need to bring a coat. 
Because I haven’t kept you alive all these years just to let you freeze to death now. 
Where’s the dog? 
As long as he’s not outside. 
Is the oven off?
Are the doors locked?
I should check the outdoor lights. 
I need to pee. 
I need to load the car. 
Get in the car.
I’ll buckle you. 
I already told you that stuffie’s too big. 
Where’s the small one?
Fine. Fine. 
I can’t argue about this. 
Everyone’s buckled, right?
Got my bag. 
The donations. 
The library books. 
Water bottles. 
Yes, we’ll stop. 
I need coffee. 
There’s something else. 
I’ll think of it. 
Yes, you can have my last piece of gum. 
Because I love you.


IT FALLS APART sale!

Hello friends! It’s been a while, I know. The Canadian in me apologizes. It’s been a very busy winter as I’ve been working away at building my freelance editing business, but I promise I do have exciting things on the horizon that I can’t wait to share with you all here on the blog! As for today, I just popped on to let you guys know that if you haven't had a chance to read IT FALLS APART yet, now is the time! The ebook is currently 50% off over at Smashwords’ Read an Ebook Week 2019. Please check it out here. And if you’d like to see some of the other awesome titles they have on sale this week, you can find them at the main sale homepage here. It’s a great time to fill your ereader with fantastic books!

Happy reading!


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We’re born believing things are fair until the day we learn they’re not. 

That means something different to us than it does to you 

but you’ll never know it. 

Not really.  

Our world looks similar 

but it sounds different, 

feels different. 

Ours is laced with a fear so natural it’s like breathing, 

a pang in our hearts, 

a resentment that simmers, but too-often only boils over with dread. 

Our bodies are never our own. 

Our voices always end up sounding quiet,

even when we’re screaming. 

Our burdens feel impossible but we carry them still,

even when we’re mourning. 

You try to represent us, punish us, put us in a box. 

You build yourself up by tearing us down, but you forget we’re made to rise from ashes. 

Our bodies rip themselves apart all the time;

we’ve learned not to flinch. 

We’ll endure you too. 

You and your fury. Your inadequacy. Your fragility. 

If you break us, you’ll live a life hemmed in by shards of glass. 

How will your fragility withstand that?

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COVER REVEAL: BEFORE THE BROKEN STAR by Emily R. King

I can’t say enough wonderful things about my agentmate, Emily R. King. She’s a fantastic author and an absolutely lovely person. Oh, and she has a new series coming out—THE EVERMORE CHRONICLES. Oh, and the first book in the series, BEFORE THE BROKEN STAR, has a STUNNING new cover. ADD THIS BEAUT TO YOUR TBR PILE ASAP!

Before the Broken Star

Series: The Evermore Chronicles

Author: Emily R. King

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Publishing Date: June 1, 2019 Genres: YA Fantasy Goodreads

Preorder: Amazon

SYNOPSIS

Everley Donovan is living on borrowed time. The lone survivor of her family’s unexplained assassination, she was saved by an ingeniously crafted clockwork heart. But the time she was given won’t last forever. Now, every tick-tock reminds her how fragile her existence is and hastens her quest to expose Killian Markham, the navy admiral who shattered her world and left her for dead. But Everley’s hunt for justice will be a long and hard-won voyage. Her journey takes her to a penal colony on a cursed isle, where she will be married off and charged to build the new world. It is here, and beyond, that hidden realms hide, treasures are unearthed, her family secrets are buried, and young love will test the strength of her makeshift heart. When Everley discovers Markham may not be who he seems, her pursuit for truth is bound to his redemption, her tragic history, and her astonishing destiny.

Emily R. King

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Emily R. King is a reader of everything and a writer of fantasy. Born in Canada and raised in the USA, she has perfected the use of “eh” and “y’all” and uses both interchangeably. Shark advocate, consumer of gummy bears, and islander at heart, Emily’s greatest interests are her four children. She’s a member of the Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators and an active participant in her local writers’ community. She lives in Northern Utah with her family and their cantankerous cat.

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Five years before I started work on my current WIP, THE BONE HARVEST, I wrote a short story called A COLLECTION OF STARS. My original reason for writing it was in response to a call for submissions for an anthology titled, Defy the Dark. My story didn’t make the cut, but I did receive a completely unexpected and heartfelt response from anthology editor and author-extraordinaire, Saundra Mitchell, that remains some of the most-meaningful praise I’ve ever received. She said:

“I loved this story. Really rich science fiction can be a rare thing in YA, and I think you did a beautiful job here. The world building is fantastic, the characters are strong. Your language is evocative—I really did think this story was great. I had to put it aside because not because of its flaws, but because I already had a ship-bound science fiction story in the anthology.

As an editor, that breaks my heart. As a sister author, it drives me absolutely crazy. So I wanted to drop you a note and let you know, this story is *great*, and you really, really must submit it elsewhere. There's a home for it out there, and it so deserves to be seen by the world. I wish you the best of luck, and I look forward to seeing more of your work in the future.”

Responses like this can be heartbreaking for an author. But it made me realize I wasn’t alone in feeling this story was special. It’s one of my favourite pieces of my own writing. Maybe I wrote it for that anthology, but that didn’t mean it couldn’t belong somewhere else. So, I did as Saundra suggested and submitted it to a few places, but the response was always the same: Thanks, but not what we’re looking for right now. So, eventually, I filed it away. And that was that.

That is, until I stumbled across it again one day and my writer brain started firing on all cylinders. I’d been carrying an idea for a YA sci-fi in the back of my mind for a while, but I could never seem to fully flesh out the plot. Re-reading this short story suddenly made everything click. And so, THE BONE HARVEST was born into a universe directly linked to A COLLECTION OF STARS.

As I said, I never did find a home for this short story, so I figure it’s time to give it a home right here. Because I really do love this little story about a teenager’s first night on-planet after living his entire life on a passenger spacecraft, and I hope you love it too.

Here’s a snippet from the text, which you can read in full at the link below.

A few feet ahead, Natalie is nothing but a silhouette in a pale sheath of fabric. She’s walking faster than me, her pace confident and sure. I jog to keep up, terrified of losing her in this creeping dark, but the unthinkable happens. I stumble, tripping over a section of rutted ground, and though I don’t fall, I lose enough balance to send the torch flying from my grasp. My reaction is like the victim of a landslide—panicked, desperate and ultimately incapable. The torch lands in a puddle of muck that extinguishes the flame on contact.

“Dammit,” I hiss, the word a crumbling pillar. I crouch to the ground as though I can somehow retrieve the lost light, but every last ember has gone out.

My world is black and cloying. I’m choking on claustrophobic thoughts, my lungs filling with muggy air and this terrible thing called night. My breath hastens as I open my eyes wide, but I can’t see a damn thing and it makes me miss the stars. It terrifies me.

Please click here to check out A COLLECTION OF STARS in its entirety.

THE BONE HARVEST: opening scene

Hello friends and followers! I’m looooong overdue for a blog update, and plan to write a proper one soon! With the release of IT FALLS APART over the summer there is so much to reflect back on and celebrate—and look forward to!—but I’m also right in the middle of a big “day job” transition right now that’s taking up almost all of my time and attention. THAT SAID, I’m sad I haven’t had much time lately to write, or blog! So I’m going to do the next best thing and share an excerpt from my current WIP with you! I’m hoping it will inspire me to get back to working on this book ASAP and inspire you to want to read more of my writing! (Btw, have you read IT FALLS APART? Have you recommended it to a friend? Have you left a review? *wink*wink*)

Here, for your reading pleasure, is the opening scene from…

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Oxygen levels are low.

I ignore the comment as best I can, wishing the robotic voice emanating from the computerized self-preservation pack, or SPP, I wear on my back would keep his warnings to himself for once.

“Thanks, Spencer. I know.” I smack a hand against the airlock’s control panel to encourage it to open. 

Merely keeping you informed, Nina. Oxygen levels have dropped 0.37% since my last warning.

“It’s fine. I’ve got this.” I retrieve my multi-gadge from the back pocket of my charcoal jumpsuit and twirl it in my hand until the screwdriver head appears, then cram it into the crease of the console, popping open the cover.

“Got it,” I say. “Now to figure out what’s keeping this airlock from sealing properly.”

Perhaps you should have waited for Harley, like he wanted you to.

I roll my eyes. “I didn’t need to wait for Harley,” I say, remembering the caution from my mentor all too clearly. “Like I said, I’ve got this.”

I spin my multi-gadge to reveal the laser-head, then aim it into the console, tucking my chin-length hair behind my ear. I can see where the wires are frayed—a loose connection in the computer, enough of one that it can’t figure out how tightly to seal the inner doors.

You were supposed to check in at the Job Desk at 1730 hours.

This time I ignore Spencer’s comment. It’s not that I don’t appreciate him figuratively—and for the most part, literally—always having my back, I just need to focus and get this airlock fixed so I can prove to Harley I’m capable of handling these repair jobs unsupervised.

1730 hours was 10 minutes ago. 

Still ignoring, I twist the frayed wires together where they should be attached, trying to remember everything Harley taught me about wiring as I go.

Oxygen levels are still dropping. Do you know what will happen if you run out of Oxygen?

“I have a rough idea,” I say, working as fast as I can.

What about if the wires you are fusing malfunction and the outer doors open? Do you know what will happen then?

“That’s not going to happen,” I say, but even I can hear the uncertainty in my voice. “The outer door is fine.”

There is no pressure in space, Nina.  The air in your lungs would expand, ripping the fragile tissue open— 

“Okay, thanks,” I bite back. “I get the picture. Not helpful, Spence. Not helpful.”

I take a deep breath, which is probably a mistake. I’m starting to feel a bit lightheaded. With everything set the way I want it, I begin re-fusing the wires with my laser, but then my hair fans out to obstruct my view, causing me to reactively drop my multi-gadge onto the grated, metal floor of the airlock. “Shit.”

I scoop it back up, then clench it between my teeth while shrugging Spencer off my back, letting him slide to the floor so I can retrieve a hair elastic from my pocket. With the multi-gadge still in my mouth, I pull my sleek, black hair into a ponytail, its violet tips funneling out from the pinch like a crest of purple feathers.

I detect an abrupt plunge in elevation. Did you drop me, Nina?

With my hair fully off my face, I return my attention to the control panel. “No, I’m just giving you a five-minute break, Spence.”

Self-preservation packs do not require breaks.

“Well, then feel free to keep talking. Just not about lungs bursting open. In fact, the entire subject of bodily harm is off the table,” I say, continuing to work on the wires. “Tell me a story—or a joke.”

Alright. A structurally-modified self-preservation pack walks into a bar. "What can I get you?" the bartender asks. "I need something to loosen up," the structurally-modified self-preservation pack replies. So the bartender serves him—

A screwdriver,” I say, right alongside him. “Is that seriously the only joke you know?”

When a joke is that funny, you only need one. 

“Hmm.” I bite my lip, examining my work. “That’s debatable.”

I fiddle with a few more wires, then spot another connection that’s coming lose. What a rat’s nest. This airlock was due for an upgrade a long time ago. 

I am sorry for having to do this, Nina, but I am not programmed to have a choice.

“Having to do wha—?”

A blaring alarm overrides Spencer’s ability to respond, tearing my question apart before a robotic voice much deeper than Spencer’s relays a dire warning:

EMERGENCY. EMERGENCY. OXYGEN LEVELS ARE DANGEROUSLY LOW. EMERGENCY. EMERGENCY...

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If you want to read more, you can find another small excerpt from THE BONE HARVEST here.

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It's hard to believe it's been nearly three weeks since IT FALLS APART made its debut in the e-book/paperback world. Thank you so much to everyone who has purchased, read, reviewed, recommended, or gifted my book. Your support means so much to me. 

Today, I have another fun little look at what went into publishing IT FALLS APART, specifically with regards to the cover art. I don't know about you, but I love a good book cover, and I'm also a big fan of deleted scenes, alternate endings, and seeing things that almost were. Some people will tell you that once you land on a cover image, you shouldn't bother sharing what might have been for fear that people might like that version better, but I think people are going to have different tastes no matter what you do, so you might as well have some fun along the way, and I found the process of designing cover options for the novel to be a lot of fun. 

When I set out to find a cover image for the Radish pre-release, I wanted something that would stand out without text (Radish doesn't allow covers with text), so I went with the heavily iconic image of two hands barely hanging on because to me, that was really representative of not only Harper and Luke's story (wanting to be together despite the forces keeping them apart) as well as Harper and Chloe's story (two best friends trying to hang on to their friendship despite some major obstacles). It was fitting, and I still like the drama of that image, but when it came time to create the cover for the e-book, I knew I wanted something new, something fresh, and something that very clearly said, "THIS IS A FUN, SEXY, FLIRTY YA ROMANCE". I think I accomplished that with the final cover (which you can see below), but as I said above, I did have some fun along the way; click through the below gallery to see some of the cover options I explored (some are watermarked as these are only mock-ups) on my journey to that final cover, including titled versions of both covers that made it to Radish:

 
 

When all was said and done, the photograph I chose to use was one by Thai photographer, Tirachard Kumtanom, whose work is fun, fresh, and just lovely. Here is the full image I used for the final cover of IT FALLS APART. I love the flirty, youthful vibe conveyed by the white bedsheets, sunlit background, and playful pose of the model. To me, it perfectly captures the way Luke makes Harper feel--carefree and in love despite the world falling apart around her. 

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And here, of course, is the final cover:

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the not-so-lost prologue

IT FALLS APART has been out in the world in e-book and print formats for just over a week now. Thank you so much--SO MUCH--to everyone who has ordered a copy and/or left a review. You have literally helped to make my dream of having a book out in the world come true. I can't tell you how much that means to me. If you haven't had a chance to leave a review you, Amazon.com specifically could really use some love. If you've reviewed somewhere else, it's easy to just copy and paste your same review to other sites, including Goodreads. THANK YOU!

I have a few things I want to share with you on the blog in the coming weeks--some fun little bonus items. Maybe even a deleted scene or two? Actually, today's offering is something of a deleted scene, only it's not exactly a scene. Rather, it's the original prologue, and if it sounds familiar, it's because after I decided to scrap it, I then used it as the basis for my book trailer (and here you all thought I just write really compelling book trailer scripts!).

In its final form, the novel starts with an e-mail from Harper to Chloe, written right after they've said goodbye. That's something that came to feel like the right place to start the story after a few rounds of revisions, but before that, there was this:

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IT FALLS APART - ORIGINAL PROLOGUE
We’re moving.
Two words no one wants to hear halfway through their senior year of high school. Moving is social reincarnation. A life-altering shove out of the nest, and into the unknown.
New town. New school. New peers. The grief of leaving everything you know and love behind. The broken fence post that gave you that scar. The treehouse in the backyard, once a castle. There’s a reason relocating is the start of so many stories. Having to fumble your way through a new reality when your life’s unwittingly been turned upside-down? It hits you right in the gut. Like the first time you see your parents as helpless and realize the world isn’t some safe, unyielding bubble. The bubble moves.
Sometimes it pops.
I know because it happened to me—only I wasn’t the one who left. Halfway through senior year, my best friend moved away, leaving me to collect the shattered pieces in her wake.

And in case you missed it, or feel compelled to view it again in all its staggering beauty, here is the book trailer for IT FALLS APART, featuring an edited version of the above:

IT FALLS APART release day is here!

IT FALLS APART if officially out in the world in e-book and print formats! Thank you so much to everyone who pre-ordered and who's taken the time to leave a review. I can't possibly tell you how much it means to have friends and family support me in making this lifelong dream a reality. 

If you haven't yet ordered your copy of IT FALLS APART, there's no time like the present! The e-book is available through all of the most common retailers, but please note the print edition is exclusively available through Amazon:

Amazon.com
Amazon.ca
Barnes & Noble
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Kobo US
Kobo CAN

If you've read the book already, please consider leaving a short review on Amazon or rate it on Goodreads. I would appreciate it SO MUCH <3

Happy reading!

 

IT FALLS APART book trailer

It’s the book trailer that has critics saying, “Might’ve been cute if a kid had made it” and “You can get a pretty decent USB mic on Amazon these days. Maybe do that next time.”

With all the production value of a high school English project, I present to you, the 100% homemade, zero budget book trailer for IT FALLS APART. Enjoy :) 

IT FALLS APART e-book cover reveal!

 

Are you ready for it?

I'm thrilled to share with you the shiny, new e-book cover for IT FALLS APART

 
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I hope you love it as much as I do! We have just over a month to go before the e-book launch of IT FALLS APART and I can't wait for the entire novel to be bundled up in one fun, flirty, little package :) 

If you haven't already, please find me on social media (I'm now on Instagram @authorkatpaws), and/or sign up for email updates (in the sidebar -->) to keep up with the latest, and stay in the loop on when the e-book edition of IT FALLS APART hits Amazon for pre-order. I'm hoping anyone who's read the book already (or even just checked it out) will consider leaving a review at that time since, good or bad, reviews are worth their weight in gold to indie authors and it would mean SO MUCH to me.

That's all for today! I'll be posting more fun, e-book-related news in the coming weeks, but in the meantime, I'd love to hear what you think of that shiny, new cover! Come @ me with your reactions! 


IT FALLS APART

By: Kate Pawson Studer
E-book release date: June 28, 2018
Publisher: Kindle Direct Publishing

About the Book

There’s no one more tempting than the person you’re not supposed to touch…

When Harper Donnelly’s best friend, Chloe, moves out-of-state halfway through their senior year, she figures things can’t get much worse. But then Nan, her grandmother and sole guardian, falls ill, throwing Harper’s life into chaos. Hoping to lighten Nan’s burden, Harper dives headfirst into helping with the family business, shuttling tourists from the airport. The job itself is easy enough, except it brings her into regular contact with Chloe’s ex-boyfriend, Luke, who's been kinda broody since Chloe left—and kinda gorgeous since forever.

Harper has never been particularly fond of Luke, but with Chloe gone, she starts noticing a different side to him, one that makes her pulse race, and soon their stumbled-upon friendship evolves into something far more intense. Keeping their relationship a secret isn’t so hard—it’s even kind of exciting—until Chloe unexpectedly returns for the summer, leaving Harper torn between the guy she’s definitely falling for, and the best friend she swore she’d never betray.

 

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Hello again! Two blogs in a row? What is this, Disneyland? No, it's not. And no, that didn't make much sense, so let's move on. As I mentioned at the end of yesterday's exciting announcement about the release date for the e-book of IT FALLS APART (June 28th) and the shiny, new cover coming on May 21st (have you signed up for email updates yet? --->), today I'm going to treat you to a little taste of how things appeared in my mind's eye as I wrote IT FALLS APART. Often, when I start a new story, I have a very rough idea of what I want my characters to look like. Sometimes they're based on specific actors or fictional characters while other times they're closer to some composite of elements I've formed in my brain. Sometimes they're a little fuzzier and less well-defined, but start to take shape as I write, leading me to later identify them with someone in particular. In the case of IT FALLS APART, I had a pretty clear idea of what one particular character looked like, but the others were more in that fuzzy zone, where I had a rough idea, but not a specific person in mind. So to help me with the process, I started to look for images that might help me fully flesh out the characters and settings in the book, so I could turn to them whenever I wanted to get a strong visual.

When it comes to "casting" characters in my books, I tend to avoid really mainstream blockbuster actors and actresses who've already made too strong an impression on me, especially if they're already in big YA franchises that have left them as someone very specific in my head. In other words, as lovely as she is, it's unlikely any of my protagonists will ever be the spitting image of J-Law. That said, there are times when someone is just the right match, and as long as my brain can make the connection without seeing the a-lister as someone else, they end up being a good fit. 

So, how do I (roughly) picture Harper, Luke, Chloe, and Meera? Let's take a look:

Alicia von Rittberg as Harper Donnelly

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Honestly, I don't know much about Alicia von Rittberg. I just know that when I saw some pictures of her, I said, "That's what Harper looks like, except Harper has darker hair." Sometimes casting my main protagonist is hardest because she's the most like me of all the characters, and I want my readers to be able to identify with her too. I often don't include detailed physical descriptions in any of my books because I really do like my readers to be able to picture the characters however they want to. I'll give little hints about hair color or length, but if the reader wants to picture Harper as a different ethnicity, I want them to be able to do that without too much trouble. It's hard. I know some people like a lot of physical description so they can really picture the characters as I do, but I suppose this post is for them! This is Harper to me. A pretty girl-next-door. Casual, confident, and beautiful, without looking too-unrealistically-Hollywood gorgeous.

Jeremy Irvine as Luke Coleman

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Of course, Luke has to be a babe. But he also has to capture that boy-next-door quality too. Casting the heroes in my books is also often a challenge because again, I want someone who is definitely hot enough to be a supermodel, but doesn't look like he was born to walk the runway. Jeremy Irvine captures the Luke look to me. Very cute, gorgeous lips, but you could still picture him working in the barn at the inn. Not a "pretty boy", though he is very pretty to look at. I think Harper would more than approve :)

Tanvi Ganesh Lonkar as Meera Chabra

 
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With Hollywood still coming up short with regards to casting diversity, there isn't exactly a large selection of young, Indian actresses to consider when it comes to casting someone like Meera. Hopefully one day there will be a significantly larger pool of Indian actresses to consider, but I did do some research into Bollywood films to see if I could find someone who fit the image of Meera I had in my head. In the end, nobody quite clicked until I found Tanvi Ganesh Lonkar, who actually is of Hollywood ilk, playing in Slumdog Millionaire. As soon as I saw Tanvi, I knew she was Meera, right down to her mostly sweet, but a little bit sassy smile.

Chloë Grace Moretz as Chloe Pascal

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Chloë is Chloe. She's always been Chloe. She's the reason Chloe was named Chloe. I think CGM is a very cool young woman (having loved her since Kick-Ass) and I think my Chloe is a very cool young woman too. Yes, in a story where we're rooting for Harper and Luke, there may be an underlying desire to see Chloe as the enemy, but really, she's not. She's Harper's BFF for a reason. She's sweet and funny with a big heart. It would have been easy to write her as a bad person, or someone Harper could easily have a falling out with to pave the way for her and Luke hooking up, but no. Whether it's Harper and Chloe or Harper and Meera, strong female friendships were an important component of IT FALLS APART as I set out to write and I hope Chloe comes across as lovely and likable even if she is a pretty big obstacle for Harper and Luke.

So, that's it for casting. I almost never bother to cast the adult characters in my books (Nan is every awesome grandma you've ever met all rolled into one), and I haven't yet taken the time to cast side characters like Yuvin, Carter, Lewis, or Eden. I have images of them in my mind, but they're still in that fuzzy state. And like I said, I really do like my readers to be able to imagine the characters for themselves. In fact, if you've been picturing them a certain way, I'd love to hear about it in the comments!

Before I sign off on this post, I'll share a few more bonus images with you, which I also had saved in my inspiration folder for IT FALLS APART:

The main house at the Coleman Country Inn

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A guest cabin at The Coleman Country Inn

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Harper and Nan's cottage-like home

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Berne Harbor, based on Bar Harbor, Maine

I've never been to Bar Harbor (or Maine for that matter--YET), but I based the fictional town of Berne Harbor on it because it perfectly captures everything I wanted Harper's touristy hometown to be.

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Harper's prom dress

I'd love to include Meera's prom dress too, but that one was 100% from my brain and I'm yet to stumble across an image that captures it. 

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exciting e-book news!

 
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Pre-release promo cover for radish

 

Hello blog followers and friends! I can’t believe IT FALLS APART has been out in the world (okay, not in its entirety YET) for over a month now. I can't believe it's been a #1 bestseller on the Radish YA/TEEN list for the past 15 days in a row! And I can’t believe we only have SIX more episodes to go! For those who’ve been reading, thank you so much for devoting a portion of your precious reading time to my words and for supporting me as an indie author. I appreciate it deeply and hope you’re enjoying the story so far! For those who haven’t had a chance to check it out, or are waiting for the e-book (or are reading it on Radish AND want to further support me by adding the ebook to their collection), I have some exciting news to share! 

The e-book of IT FALLS APART will officially be available for your reading and re-reading pleasure on Thursday, June 28, 2018. And in addition to capturing the entire novel in a single volume for the first time, the e-book will also feature an all-new cover (i.e. NOT the one pictured above) that I’m very excited to share with you SOON. In fact, the lovely new cover be making its debut here on the blog on Monday, May 21st. BUT WAIT! THERE’S MORE EXCITING NEWS! Newsletter subscribers are going to get to see it even sooner! That’s right, anyone who’s signed up for my (exciting updates only, I promise) newsletter will get a sneak peak of the e-book cover on Wednesday, May 16th, almost a full week ahead of everyone else! How cool and exclusive is that? The answer is very cool and very exclusive. Maybe even too exclusive, but hey, I like you guys, so it’s all good. And of course, in addition to getting early access to the cover, you’ll also never miss an update about what’s happening with future releases, including firsthand scoop on when the IT FALLS APART e-book becomes available for pre-order on Amazon—AND I may have a few other exclusive goodies up my sleeve as well...

So, if you’re so inclined, please take a moment to sign up right here on the site. On desktop, you can find the super-easy signup box right there on the righthand sidebar of this page. If you’re on mobile, you will probably have to scroll down a bit until you see it, but once you’re there, you’re just a few keystrokes away from never missing out. 

I’ll be back here on the blog tomorrow to share some of the images I used for inspiration while writing IT FALLS APART. Dream casting anyone? Come back tomorrow to see how Harper, Luke, Chloe, and Meera all appeared in my mind's eye as I brought them to life on the page. 

first kisses to melt your everything

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There's a bit of kissing going down in this week's chapters of IT FALLS APART--okay, there's A LOT of kissing cause, come on guys, KISSING. Fun fact: There is a folder on my computer called "Kissing". It's a wonderful place, where kissing-related images and inspiration go to make out. 

ANYWAYS, in addition to all the kissing (did I mention there's KISSING?), IT FALLS APART also hit #1 on the YA/Teen list last night AND flew past 50k views this morning! I AM DEAD. 

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You guys. That's a lot of views! I'm not-so-kinda blown away. You guys are the best. Seriously. You're right up there with my kissing folder. Okay, you're better than my kissing folder.  I can think of no better way to celebrate these milestones (and the kissing) than with a rundown of some of the best TV kisses to ever lock lips. If you're not swooning by the end of this list, you're dead inside. Or a robot. Or something. 

(Disclaimer: I wanted to include even more swoony first kisses, but couldn't find all of them online so if your fav kiss is missing, I apologize!)

In no particular order, let's get romantic:

Logan and Veronica, VERONICA MARS

Tim and Lyla, FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS

Fitz and Simmons, MARVEL'S AGENTS OF SHIELD

Mindy and Danny, THE MINDY PROJECT

Chuck and Sarah, CHUCK

Jeff and Annie, COMMUNITY

Chuck and Blair, GOSSIP GIRL

Hanna and Caleb, PRETTY LITTLE LAIRS

Cosima and Delphine, ORPHAN BLACK

Josh and Donna, THE WEST WING

Pacey and Joey, DAWSON'S CREEK

Blaine and Kurt, GLEE

Betty and Jughead, RIVERDALE

Castle and Beckett, CASTLE

Luke and Lorelai, GILMORE GIRLS 

Jim and Pam, THE OFFICE

Mulder and Scully, THE X-FILES

What's your favourite TV kiss?